The apostles were clueless. They had been watching the tension between Jesus and the “keepers of the law” intensify, the latter repeatedly trying to get Jesus to say something that would warrant arrest. They even watched Jesus finally deliberately give them the ammunition, I AM. Yet they still seem to have no idea that Judas was betraying Jesus, the Passover meal was more than a meal, and that the long discourse meant something besides, well, a long discourse. That’s evident in that they fell asleep in the garden of Gethsemane even after Jesus asked them why they didn’t know Him after three years. Sleep? How could you sleep when your strong, unflappable leader was so distressed during the meal?
The apostles believed the Messiah would create a revolution and usher in the glory of Israel. They believed Jesus was that Messiah. They believed this so strongly and myopically that it blinded them from the possibility something more profound and transforming was happening.
Our beliefs about ourselves, others, and even God can also blind us to the transformation God is trying to complete in us. Now, during the Triduum, is the time we can really examine those limiting beliefs. Perhaps God is inviting us to let go of them and instead trust Him as we live through the unfolding of current events in our lives, like them or not.
In you, O Lord I take refuge; let me not be put to shame. Psalm 71:1
There will not be a post until after Easter. Have a blessed Triduum!
Painting: The Last Supper by Allesandro Allori (1535-1607), public domain