This coming Sunday one of the lines in the Gospel reads, “When they saw Him, they worshiped, but they doubted.” Matthew 28:17
When we can’t wrap our head around something we doubt. We doubt others’ love for us, our courage, our ability to stay strong in adversity, and for some of us, God and the resurrection of the dead. For me doubt is a way of life but yesterday I got a shot in the arm of faith via an old friend. Amazing how a friend can bolster faith.
I hadn’t seen my friend in a year. He had retired and traveled with his brothers and a couple of friends. The months preceding I was just too busy to finagle a visit. As could be predicted it was a wonderful visit during which I learned about his travels.
My friend is a priest that technically lives alone. I say technically because I also met a homeless man he had welcomed into his house for a few days until he got on his feet. In fact during our entire visit people were coming and going, saying hi and briefly chatting. I wasn’t surprised. He’s a priest as I said, and one who believes “it’s all about the people.”
Along with catching up we talked about spiritual things. He said he was looking forward to more solitude in retirement and was building a chapel in his home. I shared that my spirituality was still characterized by doubt but that I had learned not to pay attention. He simply pointed to his head and said, “It [faith] isn’t here.” Doubts are all about thinking after all and Lord knows I think too much. He also reminded me that my work was important and that faith was about the people I served, not my doubt. That brings me back to Sunday’s gospel.
The apostles couldn’t wrap their heads around the reality of Jesus Risen but they worshiped anyway. I find that a good lesson. Don’t think. Worship and serve. I pray we all can do that.
Picture is of the front of our church