Please Lord. I need this lord. Help me Lord. I just want this little thing, just this once. Do those words sound familiar? How about these? When are You going to listen? Are You even there, Lord? How could You do this to me?
It’s good to ask God for help, to turn to Him during difficult times. It’s good to ask Him for things, good things. It’s even good to express our anger when we don’t get what we want even though that’s a child’s response. The question is, are we open to a response. I mean open. Many times answers don’t seem like answers at all. Let me illustrate.
This morning as I began my pre-dawn walk I asked God for ideas how to get out of a dilemma that has been inhibiting my ability to focus, write, and function efficiently. I only went about a block from home and in an empty field I spied a young coyote. Like most puppies this yearling coyote was actually cute so my attention was drawn away from my prayer of petition. I pulled out my phone and snapped pictures. When I then walked on it followed me. Well, it wasn’t exactly following me; it was trying to get by me and I was in the way. Wanting a close up picture I went around a corner and hid behind a retaining wall. Thinking it must have gone in a different direction I popped out from behind the wall. Sure enough I almost ran into it. Boy did it hightail across the street as I snapped more pictures.
The fact that I’m writing this in detail tells you how immersed I was in those moments. I had been asking God for help. Help did not come as I asked, evident by the fact that I’ve been struggling to write this blog post for an hour now, but a nice distraction did come and I thanked God for it.
Lesson learned: when you ask God for something be open to whatever may come your way even if it isn’t really an answer. It is a gift.
Picture is of the coyote I saw this morning (phone pics aren’t the best for distance)